Entangled Memories

The day for me to return to the Netherlands is approaching. And I have mixed feelings. A bit of nervous, a bit of longing and a bit of fear that I will have to adjust everything again once I return to Indonesia. There are too many people and things that I love there. I am not good at saying goodbyes and I do not think I will ever be good. So here I am listening to Charli XCX's music since it was taken in Amsterdam. Looking at the city gives me a nostalgic feeling, the smell, the streets and the memories. I do not know what I love the most. Maybe it's the people, maybe it's the certainty, maybe it's the city or maybe for unknown reason, it's the way the country made me feel safe.