I managed to submit a paper for a conference last week (I have to write the abstract, introduction, discussion and conclusion but at least, the data and framework are there) and revised an abstract, so writing wise, I am quite okay. However, it was not the case for my main projects. I still need to write an emails to people and to start reading all the materials that I have been collecting for the past couple of months. I have been easily distracted these days, doing random things without any result. I won't even call this phase procrastination since I don't really have a new idea.
But life wise, I am on an okay condition. Initially, I use to worry about love and career. I need to have certainty and sometimes, my obsession to certainty detach me to people I care about. Now I live my life closer to the younger version of myself, let everything flows, don't worry too much about what the future will bring as long that I am happy. So having someone who calls me everyday without any commitment is kind of liberating. The older version of me may questioned the motives or even ask for certainty but this current version does not really care. C'est la vie. That's life. Acceptance.
Probably, that's one of the reasons why I am not productive. I prefer to daydreaming than working, ahahaha.
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