C'est la vie

Somehow, I lost my touch in reading. This morning I did not manage to re-read several papers and when I started to open a new window to write a kind of introduction to my book, my head suddenly became blank. I guess I only need to be calm and everything would be alright. Sometimes, i feel that I am in the right place, but on other time, I feel great expectation. I simply hate it. I hate when people expect many great things from me. I just wanna be me. Without intensity. If I manage, it means that I chose the right career, but if it does not then find another one. Life should not be complicated. Thinking too much without knowing how to be happy. I guess this is part of being a grown up, you forget how to have fun. You become too serious with pattern and thought that people will talk bad things behind your back. For me, that kind of life is too pathetic. You only live once. So c'est la vie!