Day 28: Mean

When you were thinking about what you want to find in a partner, one important thing is that you share the same value and vision. I think the biggest turning point was when I was feeling ill and he refused to see me because it would be hard for him, that's the point when I could not see a future with him. I have the tendency to put others' first and being rejected by someone who said he loved me but would not help me during one of my weakest point was simply cruel. How can you trust your life to someone who is not only not able to protect you but also cut you into pieces? I know a relationship should not make you dependent to someone else, you have your God and yourself to define what you are as a person, but when you are in a relationship, you are kind of synchronize yourself with somebody other than you, for better or for worst. 

Alhamdulillah, time has done it magic. I am in a much better state thanks to people who were there for me during the darkness. Accepting someone during their happy state is always easy, it is during difficult state you see people's true color.