One of the hardest thing about break up is to find yourself again. Yesterday, I watched a video that illustrates a relationship like sticking two piece of papers together. Once you tear it up, there will be part of him that stick on you and sometimes, it will shatter the paper as well. I think the illustration was great, that's why I feel my self incomplete these days since I always shared my routine with him, took the wrong MRT, bought salad, eating cheesecake, watching cartoon and other little details. It's nice to have someone to share your life with.
I know I have to deal with this loneliness since he has decided to left me for someone else. I kept on hoping that he would contact me but I know that there is no point since he is going to get married in 3 months. Maybe he even already start to talk to his future wife. A band aid solution to talk to him will only jeopardize my healing process. Contacting him on Monday was a huge mistake on my end. But we are human after all, sometimes we seek for the easiest route to reduce the pain even if it's not right.
May Allah guide me with peace and patience.
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