It was a week ago we decided to break up. In the morning, I was still texting him, sending him pictures of beach and wooden bridges that I visited with friends. We were wondering how would it feel if we walk there together, holding hands where our fingers colliding into each other, sharing a glimpse of warmth through our finger tips. I was also wondering how our first meeting would be, would I be nervous, would I able to speak after talking hours on phone. But now all those imaginations just shattered into pieces. We don't belong together and I don't think he ever think that we are able to be together since the beginning, he was just denying his future whereas, I was seriously thinking ways to be with him.
I was still tempted to text him but I always restrained myself to do it since we have no future. I don't want to fall into another heartbreak although I still miss him. I slept well, back to my sleeping beauty pattern and my appetite has returned. What I miss is to have someone to share my day with and his smile.
Things that help: I have been kind to myself, not too ambitious to finish my work, binge watching serials on Netflix and allowing myself to feel the whole experience.
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