I thought talking to other guys would help but boy, I couldn't be more wrong. Replacing one's attention with other made me miss him even more. I could not help myself from comparing little details that he usually said. Meeting a guy with a similar past with him did not really help either. I almost cried in front of the guy when I told him about my past relationships. I think I will give my self a break from guys for these couple of weeks, allowing my self to recover before starting a new chapter.
I kept on questioning myself why is it so hard to letting him go? Why I felt comfortable around him? I even missed how he used to say he liked my inverted commas that appear whenever I smile. I developed a new habit of looking at the mirror and looking where the inverted commas are. I am weird for loving someone who is weird. I went for the date without make up on since I was late and all I remembered was he liked to tease me by saying, "hey look, I am beautiful, I don't need to wear make up." I miss his face as well, he has a serious face when working but when we chatted, he used to give me his rare smile.
While I passed the first with strong determination, entering the second week, I got a new urge to contact him. I am wondering how he is, why he did not contact me, am I the only miserable one? But watching a lot of breakup videos, I know I should stay strong. If he managed to move on without me, I should be able to do the same.
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