Yesterday, I tried to do the no contact but failed miserably. I went to the supermarket and saw the salad he liked and I took a picture and sent it to him. I texted "I miss you" and tempted to do our regular video call before bed. Alhamdulillah, I managed to avoid the latter. My brain is broken, why do I want to be someone who does not want me? Irrational. But somehow, I can really imagine we live together. I think that's the worst thing about move on, you have to beat your own imagination and not the reality. The reality had given you all the information to convince you that he's not the one but your mind keeps on playing tricks on you.
According to Mark, one YouTuber's love coach, to be able to break up, I have to list 10 things that I don't like about him. When I tried to do this exercise, what crossed my mind is that I hate that I love him. I hope this love thing can turn into past tense soon.
The good thing is I managed to sleep although woke up several times. I lost my appetite as well, although I managed to force myself to eat.
I tried to do rebound as well. Bad idea. I compared everyone with him and hate the whole process.
I hope day 2 is more successful than day 1.
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