One of the things I do to cope with the break up was to rationalize things. Did I miss the red flag during our relationship? Did I imagining things? While I believe that our feelings were mutual, I realize that we were on a different page. I entered the relationship with the thought of conquering all the problems. This point of view was possible due to my upbringing, I have agency to make decision for my self. Woman are quite independent in my society. For him, the relationship was more his way of denying the reality he did not want. He knew that we could never be together but he did not want to admit it.
Yesterday, I read many stories on how his society works and while he never wanted to discuss family problems with me, I could find similarities with what I read and how he was being raised and his responsibilities as the only son. Being ignorant about cultural differences made me totally blind on what I was dealing with.
People say that you need 30 days to create a new routine. I hope I already half way through being my old self again.
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